Happy

The contented feeling that I understand my place in the world grows more and more sure. Maybe that way of saying is too grandiose and misleading but there is a confidence that I feel now that I have been searching for my whole life. Someone might say that I would have figured it out sooner if I had tried harder but I see myself as a quiet, thoughtful seeker. Although I may be pondering big issues, I have not usually shown that outwardly or even commented on it to others.

I am seriously looking into Buddhist thought by listening to podcasts, reading pieces on the internet or the printed page, attending some part or full-day retreats, and trying to develop a regular meditation practice. As I listen and read these Buddhist sources, I find myself agreeing with their approach to life. I just took a look at my last post, The Big View, that says something very similar to what I am writing here. I have been struggling for words today but I said it well in that post, "I have always listened to speakers with a feeling that an understanding of truth was just out of my reach."

I don't want to sound over-confident like I have everything figured out but as I said "The contented feeling that I understand my place in the world grows more and more sure."  What actually prompted this post was the Terry Gross interview with author Tanya Luhrmann, 'When God Talks Back' To The Evangelical Community. My computer is running slow and I have some other deadlines so it may be too much to simplify my thought that these Christians she describes are doing a similar thing with their mind as Buddhist but with the thoughts are credited to God.