My frustration with the local church has been quite evident recently. My stomach hurts from thinking about the upcoming church council meeting and a proposal that has been submitted. After a similar frustration with a recent meeting, I thought about my decision to stop attending finance meetings. Not counting the Sunday Service, I thought about how as the church council president, the majority of my time at church activities outside of Sunday Worship is running meetings. I thought about how I preferred putting my time in preparing the the recent Lenten study and pulpit talk. I want some kind of balance so unless there are opportunities available to me for spiritual growth, I will cut back on my administrative duties. Even with the studies and classes, I am most often in a leadership role; when do I get to be a participant?